How hard is this to follow? As of late, I see how much I fail at this, and probably will continue to fail. It sucks, but I am really feeling like I just am made to be alone, but loving people who make it extremely hard for me to love. As opposed to people who completely love me, and myself accepting their love.
Its a weird situation, and one that doesn't totally make sense. I still can't figure out my feelings completely, but I sometimes feel like it is not fair for me to accept someone's love, without being able to fully love them back, 100% in the same way. Especially if I still struggle showing my love for Jesus, Himself. Jesus was single until His death, which allowed for Him to focus on His Father, and to focus on showing His love, patience, humbleness to all of those around Him. Sometimes, I feel that if we are to follow in His path, we should do the same, or maybe at least myself I know that the Bible also says to create a family and bear children, but that just doesn't seem like what is really in store for me, or what I would accept. So which is my path? How do I choose?
Bah. I need food.
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