Psalm 105:1

"Give thanks to the Lord, call on his name: make known among the nations what he has done."

"Devote yourselves to prayer, being watchful and thankful. And pray for us, too, that God may open a door for our message, so that we may proclaim the mystery of Christ, for which I am in chains. Pray that I may proclaim it clearly, as I should. Be wise in the way you act towards outsiders; make the most of every opportunity. Let your conversation be always full of grace, seasoned with salt, so that you may know how to answer everyone."

- Colossians 4:2-6

I have been thinking a lot lately about how I should definitely be more active in showing my love for God, and making sure that it shows in everything that I do. Wait, that was worded incorrectly. I should be more active in showing my love for God, and should allow Him to show himself through me much more. 

I really love being out here on the road with my friends, and its a great opportunity for me to meet all kinds of new people all over the country, and even spend a lot of quality time with my own good friends, and the rest of those who are on this tour with us. At the same time, I feel like I am taking advantage of this opportunity and not realizing that God put this in my hands, and that I should be doing more with it. 

Its also hard for me to figure out what it is I should be doing in my situation. Its hard to just bust into a conversation about the Lord with people, at least for me. I don't want to come off too strong or overbearing towards someone who is not a Christian and make them uncomfortable about meeting Jesus. At the same time, maybe that's what needs to be done. And then again, it wasn't constant in my face pushing that led me to Jesus. It was Jesus himself, who used friends around me to gently push me in His direction. 

I know there are not really any list of deeds that I need to do to have my eternal life with Jesus, and that doesn't mean that I can go off and do whatever. I have already been saved, and if I really have accepted Jesus into my heart, I should make Him first so much more than anything else I am doing. But how extreme does that mean I should go? Is there a limit that we should put on ourselves for such things? If we really did love God and are spreading His word like we are technically supposed to be doing, does that mean we become a fanatic and mention Jesus in every sentence?! I feel like I am over analyzing my purpose in doing evangelical work, or maybe not thinking about it enough. I have to just pray to God that He will use me to bring others to Him, and use me as a source to show himself to the world. 

Its tough to just allow that to be, and to not feel like, I have to do this, or I have to do that. Ugh. On this tour so far, which is just over a week in, I have spoken to one person about their faith, my friend Janet. And we didn't really get into anything super intense, but we both are Christians. I would love to talk to her more about it. I think the Envy guys are not of any denomination, and don't consider themselves religious, so I would love to hear what they have to say about things, but fear that I wouldn't have my own story together to show my reason for devotion to Jesus. And then, the people in my own band, I know that I should be talking to them more about things, too. But man, we are usually so busy, or tired, or just want to relax, that it doesn't seem like it will happen. 

But I will try harder, and I will work harder to get to know those around me, and not just let this wonderful opportunity pass me by. 

I pray that Jesus will give me the wisdom and words that I need when the time comes. And I am so thankful for everything that He has put into my life.